Thursday, April 16, 2009 Y
I need to be left alone, to let my thoughts overcome me, let me figure out what am I actually. I don't even know my existence is for what exactly, let people mock, laugh or be just a person who will be a listening ear. Never contribute, always think too much, everything drifting away, literally. When you treat a person nice they'll treat you back equally? That's really bullshit crap. There is nothing called nice in this world, only those who knows how to makes use of others win. Those who knows how to harm others will survive. That's how it turns out, well at least for now. Maybe the future might change, but will I even see it? Who knows? Maybe it's just better to end everything now. Don't bother so much, just be a freaking loner and life might just turn out better. Changed my thinking, don't bother. The most is to get hurt again and get tricked again. How many times I tried? 10 years. 10 freaking years already. Conclusion, humans are just a mammal that makes use of others when they possess the value that they themselves want.
I need to change, change for the better, change for the future. Nothing will ever come true, if I were to continue living in my fantasy.
&I need to forget about the past.
-ps. pause the music before watching the video.
Nickelback- If Today Was Your Last Day -
and I miss you already
8:44 PM