Sunday, February 01, 2009 Y
Oh well, guess this is how things are going to end out. I was never close to my aim at all. Moving left and right, thinking all those silly stuffs, but still I ended up in JJC. How to relate my feelings, emptiness I guess. Don't feel happy entering JJC, and neither do I feel sad. I guess I'm really numb towards everything now. To tell the truth, I thought I'd end up in NP more den in JJC. (Cause I dreamt about my results and my life in NP but then again, dreams ain't reality and would NOT become reality) To tell the truth, I think I'm really starting to wake up from my silly dream, where everything owned becomes nothing belonged. At the very least, there's company at JJC. Let's just say, I've never worked for what I've aimed so I deserved to feel disappointment. I've been taking too much things for granted and now, I get my own retribution. Lesson learnt: Never be complacent...
-&i'll strive hard now.
and I miss you already
10:19 AM