Saturday, November 08, 2008 Y
Screwed up, stuck up, messed up. Whatever I do is wrong, when it's just a replica of him. You didn't scold him, yet you flare at me. What's wrong? Just because I'm a girl, or was it because in your eyes I'm still a baby who will NEVER ever grow up? I have a mind on my own, I want to live as myself, not the perfect little girl that is in your eyes. I know when to stop, but sometimes I just don't want to stop. I wanted to have my own say in my life, which might even be a short one, no one knows what the future holds. I may be weak, I'm not as strong as him, I know that I'll never be able to have the same standing as him. Every single fact, I know. It's just that I want to change it. I don't want to be a follower. Maybe that's why I prefer school, or outside, for I'm being treated for who I am, no links to him, nothing. In your eyes, I'm of existence, but in your heart, I doubt it. Everyone that knows him, expects me to be the same as him, smart and excel in academics, yet I've to assume the role of being a girl as well. You just keep throwing me with more and more burdens, hoping to lift his own burdens when he already has lesser than me. It's freaking unfair. I don't really understand, what do you really want from me. I'm doing my best to study, but you just put me down, saying that I can't make it and stuff. You are supposed to encourage me, not put me down. I feel disappointed, really.
&i'll show it to you, my own abilities.
Tags replied:
Tricia: ty. (: 2 more papers! xD
Huiling: Pirate! I'm going to be brawler! =D
Ruby: yea. but it means school's gona end soon. ):
beatrice: hehe. jealous ar? =D
and I miss you already
10:20 AM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
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