Monday, July 28, 2008 Y
As expected, I failed Humanities horribly. Oh well, I got to work hard if I want to go into NJC. =x 5 points, freaking hard to achieve. I realized that I got lots of new enemies all of a sudden. Don't really know why, but heard is because of my Additional Mathematics result. Oh well, If you guys want that result, then take it. It doesn't really matters to me, for no matter how well I score, I've never receive the reward that I was hoping for. I really feel like giving up. Four years, three years, after seven years of struggling, I'm tired from all of it. Just a little bit of recognition, that aws all I wanted all this year. Never, NEVER did you gave it to me, even when I really did well. All you ever did was, just a nod and no more. A nod that I passed, thats all. I really want to cry, really. But all those tears that managed to flow out, were they real? I don't know. When I was injured, were you there? No, you just tell me to take the medicine and apply it myself. That was all you did, when I asked you to apply it for me, you say I'm old enough. What about him? He's older than me! You treat him like a gem and me? Like a dirt that can't be scrapped off. Do you know that I was really hurt? I'm not a robot. I had feelings, I had an innocent heart. But it was shattered by your cruelness.
To me, feelings is just a word. A word in the dictionary, a word people says about themselves. Next time when you guys want to talk about feelings, define it. Then maybe I can search through my memories for it before relating it to you.
Never say you'll understand me, for you are not me. You may have experience similar things, but they'll never be exactly the same. Sufferings is what helped me grow, pain let me become who I am.
and I miss you already
5:56 PM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
That Headset