Thursday, May 22, 2008 Y
Feel like crying all of a sudden. Maybe its because of the stress that had bottled up this days. Been really stressed up, especially when you have too much homework near your 'O' levels. Don't have the time to do, don't have the time to study. I must must improve my freaking Chinese! Its a 100% must to score A1 for it, or else the rest of my life would be horrid. What do you expect when I grew up in a Chinese educated family? And if I can't score for this, how could I score for others? This is so horrifying. I want to excel. I had been a naughty girl until now. I want to change! Maybe, I need something that can impact me very well...
I don't know what else can I do, except in the area of academics, to let you notice me even more. The sacrifice was too big, and I can't afford to repeat it. I struggle until now, and fought for it till now. I can't afford to fall, I can't afford to topple, I can't afford to trip. For this time round, the ending point would be in a bottomless pit, in my coffin...
and I miss you already
4:14 PM