Wednesday, April 16, 2008 Y
Question: Life and Death, which came first?Answer: Life of course! Without having a life, who will die?Question: Then any of it exist without the other?Answer: No, I know its sad for those who believe or wants to live forever, but the fact stays still.Question: What do you mean by the fact? Mind elaborating?Answer: Its simple. These two are link together in the process. People will die eventually, painfully or maybe not. Everyone has a lifespan, and no one knows clearly, when will it end. So my advise to all is live the life they want, or else, they might die with regret.Question: Then are you afraid of death?Answer: Not really, I am more afraid of other things. Or rather, I look forward to it. I really am tired of living, in this complicated and messy world. You never know what will happen in the future.Question: Look forward to it? Why? Won't those people who love you get hurt by it?Answer: People who loved me? Nope, they don't exist. I exist in this world is for others to compete against, for others to scold and boss around, its for others, not for myself. So why not look forward to the ending of it?Question: Ending? Death is never a solution to anything! Hence you shouldn't look forward to it!Answer: I know, death is not a solution, but something for just cowards. Yes you may say that I am a coward, and I don't care. However, did you ever think that life is just like a story, where you are the lead character in it? Every story has an ending, it could be beautiful, it could be horrible. Is it wrong to just look forward to the ending or a story? And I know one thing, 'begin with the end in mind'. I begin with a beautiful death as my end in mind, and I continued my life. And so what if I look forward to it? Every has to face death eventually, no one can live for eternity. Hence, there is nothing wrong with it.Question: What about you people reading this? Do you have the same mindset as me?...Felt troubled this days, feeling kind of lost. But who cares? I doubt anyone would. Seriously, if people ask me the questions above, I will answer the way I typed it out here. Want to send me for counseling? Sorry, but I doubt that the counselor will be able to counsel me at all, for I am way beyond hope. Either way, I think I had enough, study should be my first priority, not anything else.
I don't need all those talking, its just rubbish. You guys had dashed my dream, and I hate myself for that. Its funny, when you guys dashed my dream, I ended up hating myself. But, I only have myself to blame, for allowing my dream be dashed by you guys. And, all I ask for now is time reverse, back to the time where I was primary six, and I promise, I will study then...
我不想再去管，在去想，为什么自己会变成这样，为什么会失败到这样离谱。我说，我要改变，我一定要。这是忘记你后的第一个承诺...
and I miss you already
4:17 PM
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