Monday, February 04, 2008 Y
I am so happy today, but Mathematics homework just piss me off. Not the textbook homework but its the weekend worksheets! I don't like WEEKEND WORKSHEETS! Finish all of it but not that. >=l And all the 5 colours of the puffy now! So happy =]
Tomorrow Mathematics Test, yet I still can't feel the significance of it. I can't even feel the pressure from all. Am I really numb or what, why can't I just have the mood to study, why can't I still really feel the importance of 'O' levels. People around me panic, when I should be the one who should panic. I felt glad, that I could get pissed off by homework, but I know partly is because of my reluctance in doing homework, or maybe I should ask for help, help in telling me the reasons why I am unwilling to study, why am I not having the pressure of tests or exams, even 'O' levels. But, who can I ask for help? No one really understands me, honest! For I don't even understand myself, so how can others possibly know me better then myself.
Back to struggling with my mind, a struggle that I think would last forever.
Valentine Day draws near, and others giving each other presents etc. My present can never be given out, for I can never get back in touch with him ever again. =] Was glad, for I had moved on, for the two of us can never be together, for I knew I hurt him, for ignoring him due to my friends. I never knew my feelings for him, until I graduated, until I can no longer see him any longer. Regretted, but what can I do? I can only move on with life. Hurt/heartbroken? Nope, for I can't feel any pain any more.
and I miss you already
7:52 PM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
That Headset