Wednesday, December 05, 2007 Y
I am bored stiff staying at home. Don't really have much outings. And I haven't do my holiday homework! And, and mum is nagging at me to get my books. Its not like I don't want to but I just don't feel like going to school! Its like if I go to school, something bad is going to happen...something that I don't want it to happen to me. And every time I have this kind of feeling on the day, and I went out, I will meet people who I don't really wish to meet, or rather see! But most of the time I managed to escape unseen by those people. I wished that I could be a bit less tense on such stuff, but every time I ignore, bad things happened to me. And I always ended up running away, with the feeling of crying, but luckily, tears just won't drop. (:
I don't really know what I could do to improve my English standard. And I miss my Chinese lessons! It was real fun, joking, crapping, playing and fooling around with the teacher. She really makes me feel as if I was back in Primary School, with my favorite Chinese teacher. She's fun and kind, even though she was fierce, she always treated me with smile from her. Well, I guess its partly my fault for not talking much and even, not smiling in class before. She treated me as if I was her child, just like how my Chinese teacher treated me this year. Wrote something for her, hope she did received it, but if other teachers read it, think they will send me for consoling, but I never regretted putting it there. I guess I will miss her lots next year since she left. ):
Just three more weeks to school reopens, still haven't decide my personality for next year. Sounds weird right? But thats the truth, I still don't know how the real me really looks like, how it behaves and more. I guess that understanding others is easy, but understanding myself is hard. For I can't understands what my heart really desires. Maybe, its just that I don't wish to understand my heart...
and I miss you already
3:50 PM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
That Headset