Monday, November 26, 2007 Y
Didn't really know what I should do now. Continue my life with a smile, with some laughters or should I go back to the old me, the real me. Its like, I find the real me so unfamiliar, so much like a stranger inside of me. I'm like, facing the world with a fake front, a fake side of myself? Its just so weird. Smiling all the time, laughing all the while, is it what I really want, is that what my true self is supposed to be like? If thats the case, have I been hiding my true self until Secondary two? After I really adapt to the environment of Singapore study system? If I spent about 14 years to adapt, then what will happen when I go work? I don't have that much time. I seriously don't know what I should do and yet, I am facing so much trouble. No one really knows what I want, what I desire, what I am in need of. Yet, everyone I know seems to be piling on and on to my misery, as if trying to see me suffocated, to see me going through all these agony. Sometimes, I just wish that I was never born. Only then, I won't need to face all this, to go through all these. I really don't know what is happening to me, or how should my life path be continued...maybe I am just too tired to think what should I do next. Maybe, I should just start my life a new...
不知爲什麽，我又想起了你。想起你以前對我說過的話。現在的我才真正明白，你說的話的含義。思考過，我也了解了。我的確像你所說的，漫無目的的在這世界上，在我人生的道路上行走，但我卻不明白，自己要如何更改。你已離去，只剩下我一人。你的話並沒有說完，不！你有。只是那時的我不願聼進去，不願去相信，你雖説的每一句，因那天，也是我們分離的一天。是我提議的，但也是我不願放手的，我真得太矛盾了...
and I miss you already
5:30 PM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
That Headset