Friday, May 18, 2007 Y
yes i m sad...
yes i m disappointed...
yes i m pretending...
yes...
i m weak...
i cant do anything tt could let my parents b proud of...
if they are proud...
they are proud of wad??
my FAILED english mark??
see ms tans next thurs??
my behavior in sch??
juz wad??
i cant do anything 4 dem b proud of...
NTH!!!
no matter how hard i try i juz cant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i m e useless one...
i cant handle anything...
i dun wanna b compared wif my bro any longer!!!!!
i cant take it alr...
the stressed,the competitive feeling,the struggling 4 ur praise...
i wan 2 put this 2 an end oni!!
i wan 2 cry...
but i noe tt i WILL b beaten 4 tt...
so wad shu i do??
i cant do anything i wan!!!
i wanna stop...
i wanna end...
i wanna put this 2 an end...
i wanna cry...
i wanna try...
i wanna do the best i could...
but all this seems impossible...
how??
wad shu i do??
ur words hurt me a lot...i will nv 4gt the pain i suffered...
every1 else thinks its ok 2 fail english...but its not!!!
parents c tchers...neither of dem will b hurt...
but the person hu is hurt is the child of the parents...
4 she cause sadness in her parents...
and this will lead 2 the child living in a life of torture frm now...
and the person hu torture her is herself....
and soon...the child's name is known...
and the name is CHM...
...
and I miss you already
5:01 PM