Thursday, May 17, 2007 Y
sian...
dun feel lyk going sch 2ml...
den dun nid hand in form...
dun nid 2 face e sad sad world...
if i m keeping quiet or zoning out...
plz kindly do not disturb me...
coz trying 2 control my emotion...
felt lyk crying seriously...
chiniz gt one saying is really true...
爬得越高，跌得越痛...
it really hurts now...
so wad i gt a high average...
so wad if i score well 4 all other subjs??
I FAILED ENGLISH!!!
TTS WAD MATTERS!!!
in the end is now lyk 34 in class??
when my average is within the top 10??
damn funny lar...
dan square is e same lyk me...
juz tt she score 0.1 more in her average...
lol
she asked me how 2 tell our parents lyk tt??
my ans was...i WUN be telling dem...
tt time i really wan 2 cry out...
i can feel my tears is gona come out anytime...
e same thing happens when i was in english...
tcher was toking 2 me...
and i ans without a voice but juz action...
4 i noe tt if i replied wif words,
tears will flow out...
i was sure...
i seriously dunno wad 2 do...
i m lost...
lost in e fact tt i m e last few in class...
lost in e fact tt tcher might c my parents...
lost in e fact tt i lost 2 my bro...
stressed out...
my bro...top in lvl...
me...last few in lvl...
i seriously dunno how 2 tell my parents...
i m lyk the total opp of my bro...
but wad can i do??
i m not as clever as him...
neither m i as good as him...
i do feel pain in my hart when i c e result...
yet i still haf 2 smile...laugh...and joke wif others...
reason is tt i dun wan others 2 c my weak side...
every1 haf their weak side...
i m no exception...
i m juz a normal kid...
wad i asked was simple...
i juz asked 4 me 2 pass every single subj...
tts all...
yet i cant even achieve this...
wad can i say???
i can no longer say tt i wan 2 b lyk my bro....
its a dream tt can nv come true i guess...
i cant do anything alr...
exam over...results out...studies resume...tchers leaving...
everything continues...
i cant let myself stop here...
but i m juz too tired 2 carry on wif my life...
too tired...
and I miss you already
3:18 PM
Macbook Pro(13 inch)
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